“You are full of awareness and enjoy everything you have and don’t bewail what you do not have” – Random Paper Wisdom
Well, you don’t and you know it. But sometimes I just wish you were a little easier on me.
Last week I got a new hormonal shot (no, not trying to get pregnant – trying to avoid going to war with my hormones again) and this always makes me a little… emotional.
(I was going to write “hormonal” but that just seemed a pun too obvious to make)
Anyway, not feeling my greatest, I found out that I have the power to set the mood at home. When I spill my toxins in a verbal manner, my mother is quick to take over and spill even more of her own. My dad likewise.
When I am happy and set a lighter mood, my parents soak up that energy as well and reciprocate. Maybe you’d say that’s how it works with moods, Life, but I find I am less and less affected by how others act.
But tomorrow… I have a horrible coaching client. They’re really the worst!
Secretly they’re not, though. I know this person acts out because of fear. Fear of what they might find if they’d actually look at their inner selves. It’s easier to denigrate the person in front of you than to admit that maybe you are the one being wrong.
I very much have mixed feelings over tomorrow: I really don’t want to see this person ever again, but I also know it’s the last session we have together. And I plan to celebrate.
But in order to get to the sweet part, I have to bite my way through that sour apple first. What’s that saying? “You can’t make an omelette without breaking eggs.”
Life, be kind tomorrow. Make sure my hormones stay quiet enough for me to refrain from becoming verbally violent.
So that I can enjoy my nice clients and not mourn over never having to see this awful one. Ever. Again.